Newness

You ruin your life by desensitising yourself, we are all too afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us. Caring isn’t synonymous with crazy. Expressing to someone how special they are to you make you vulnerable. There is no denying that. However, that is nothing to be ashamed of. There is something breathtakingly beautiful in the moment of smaller magic that occur when you strip down and are honest with those who are important to you. Let that boy/girl know that he/she inspires you. Tell your loved one that you love them in front of the world. Express, express and express. Open yourself up, don’t harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how you love. There is courage in that.

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  One who delights in solitude is either a Wild beast or God!!

I refuse to let life harden me, I refuse to close myself off, to knot my ribcage back together, to never allow for my heart to shatter and burst and overflow with feeling. I refuse to doubt, to believe that the world has nothing left to offer me, to let my soul give up before my bones do. I refuse to regret the way I can only ever care from the deepest parts of who I am, I refuse to mourn the pieces of myself I gave to others when I dug into the dirt of them and loved them where it ached. I refuse to desensitise myself. I want life to weather me, I want to experience it as honestly, and as bravely as I possibly can. I want to honour the way everything inside of me reaches for others, for connection, for hope, for the belief in something so much bigger than whatever it is that has wounded or damaged me in the past. I want to embrace the way I trust, because at the end of the day I am here to feel. I am here to feel.

Signing off, your lovingly,

Rashmi Manjunath ❤